Vas Morgan slams TOWIE as being negative and bad for his mental health: ‘I didn’t like the impact it had on me’

Vas Morgan slams TOWIE as being negative and bad for his mental health: ‘I didn’t like the impact it had on me’

12/16/2020

Get the best celeb exclusives and video house tours to your inbox every evening with our daily newsletter

As an ex-TOWIE cast member, Vas Morgan is used to the drama of being on a reality show. But when his drink and drug addiction saw his life spiral out of control, he knew it was time to quit, escape the country and get himself clean.

When I chat to the 32-year-old on the phone, he’s in Los Angeles in lockdown. It’s a far cry from his days filming in Essex, where he was regularly embroiled in arguments with other cast members on the backstreets of Brentwood – I should know, I was there!

“I never felt I was ever true to myself when I was on the show,” he tells me. “A lot of the time I was playing up to the camera and not being myself. I feel my mental health has improved so much more now I’m not on the television.”

  • Vas Morgan and Zara McDermott reach out to Georgia Harrison as Stephen Bear considers faking suicide after sex tape claims

  • TOWIE star Vas J Morgan opens up about coming out as gay on national TV before telling his family

Get exclusive celebrity stories and fabulous photoshoots straight to your inbox with OK!'s daily newsletter. You can sign up at the top of the page.

Like many celebrities with a large platform, Vas decided to speak out about his mental health problems in a bid to help others going through the same struggles. He previously revealed he tried to kill himself after spending a year drinking and partying and has opened up about his battle with depression, which left him cutting contact with friends and family. However, now healthy and sober, he’s happier than ever.

Here, Vas chats about what made him turn his life around, his rehab experience and why he now doesn’t have to have a drink to be in a good mood…

  • Vas Morgan and Zara McDermott reach out to Georgia Harrison as Stephen Bear considers faking suicide after sex tape claims

  • TOWIE star Vas J Morgan opens up about coming out as gay on national TV before telling his family

How are you doing, Vas?

I’m good thanks, just quite tired. I’m in LA and, although the pandemic is bad here, it seems quite busy around where I am.

Are you coming back to the UK for Christmas?

I’m not sure yet what my plans are. I’m currently in quarantine here, so after LA I may go somewhere else.

What have you been doing?

I caught up with TOWIE last night, which is probably why I’m so knackered too. I’m really sorry to hear you broke up with your boyfriend. You always put others first so it’s nice you put yourself first for once. Normally the show is so b***hy – you can feel the negative energy through the screen – so it was nice to see you give positive vibes con the show.

Aww, thanks babes! How did you find your time on TOWIE?

I didn’t realise it was so bad for my mental health when I was on it. I felt so much pressure to act up to have air time. Only when I left the show did I realise it was so negative and I didn’t like the impact it had on me at the time. I loved the cast and crew, but not being on the show. Watching the drama is great TV but it is so negative. You and Amy saved this season as you are so bright and fun.

That’s sweet of you to say!

So many people don’t understand the show is not scripted – and the latest series has been explosive…I hated all the arguments but know how hard it is to walk away from a scene. It is not nice to see people arguing. But it made great TV and it obviously works as it’s had such an impact on social media.

Do you feel like your mental health is better now you’re away from reality TV?

So much. I can be the real me now. I was suppressing myself on screen more than in real life. I feel so much lighter. I’m three years sober now and have so much clarity. TOWIE gave me such incredible opportunities and I’ve come away with such amazing friends, so I don’t blame the show, but I’ve improved being away from it. If I don’t like someone I avoid them but on the show, with the camera crew in your face, you can’t do that.

Congratulations on being sober – three years is such a milestone…

It feels good not to be hungover and now I go out and my friends are very respectful. I surround myself with friends who aren’t party people.

Did you have a lightbulb moment which made you give up drinking?

I was out with some friends and spent two days in a hotel off my face. I lay down on the third day, having had no sleep, and revaluated my life. I booked a flight to Thailand and checked into rehab off my face. And I spent four months there and have been sober ever since.

That’s so impressive, Vas!

It’s really crazy. When I left rehab they said to me, “Look around the room at the group. Some people here may not make it – in fact, only one in three of you will stay sober.” Some have passed away since and it’s so sad. I know a lot of people who went back to rehab and out of 24 of us in that group only two have stayed sober. The issue and problem was me – I didn’t know how to process my emotions. I grew up in a black Caribbean household where nobody spoke about their feelings, but in rehab I realised everyone has problems.

  • Sign up to our daily newsletter for the BEST celebrity house tours and BIGGEST exclusive interviews

  • Download OK! magazine's FREE app and get all the latest gossip straight to your phone

Do you find it difficult being around people drinking?

No, now I don’t even think about it. I used to when I first came out of rehab, but is it worth it? One drink could lead me back to having thoughts about wanting to kill myself.
So no, of course it’s not. I thrive on other people’s energy so sometimes I feel drunk on nothing!

What’s your greatest wish for 2021?

For everyone to experience some sort of joy. Everyone deserves it after this awful year!

Source: Read Full Article